If I believed in angels,
I would wonder who
The angel would be
Assigned to look after me.
The love I called sweet angel
And I let everything crumble into ruins since then
The threads holding me to life
And I am not a weaver to lace them back again
I ask for an ethereal angel,
Sexless, like I want to be.
Give me a celestial angel
To hover round me lovingly.
My sweet angel, a love I thought
Packed up, boarded a plane, and left me miserable and blue
Someone enticed him to a far-off shore
Has him in tow, back turned to me, he has abandoned me
In myths, winged angels
Always accompany your soul,
And at life’s end they hold your hand
As heartbeat fades and body turns cold.
I love a man who is capricious,
To be disconsolate
Is my reward. A piece of me broke off and died
When sweet capricious cast me aside.
Not yet a cynic, I choose to yearn for his return
If I lacked passion
As do ethereals,
How fortunate would I be:
I’d live each day agony free.
I know angels do not exist,
Neither in love, nor in the heavens:
They live in dreams, they are a wish
And I know I’m a fallen human,
Coveting another’s happiness.
My cup raised high, I toast to emptiness
I’ll drink red wine till my bottle’s done.
Fly down archangel, share a glass
Then strike me lifeless,
Discard me where the dead amass.